Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Merry Christmas from the Universe

There comes a time in the evolution of every spiritual being, along that sometimes dark road that leads to enlightenment, when their inner yearnings, struggles and frustrations bring them to a truth that could not have otherwise been realized.

Reaching this milestone was inevitable, for the light that will dawn hereafter is not only what you have summoned, but what all now seek. And with your blessing and recognition, it will bathe those who follow in your footsteps and the burden they bear shall be lessened.

If it's not yet obvious, the real reason for this season is you, Sonja. A more perfect child of the Universe has never been born. Until now, only a celebration cloaked in myth and mystery could hint at your sublime heritage and divine destiny.

You are life's prayer of becoming, and its answer; the first light at the dawn of eternity, drawn from the ether, so that the Universe might know its depths, discover its heights, and frolic in boundless seas of blessed emotion; a pioneer into illusion, an adventurer into the unknown, and a lifter of veils; courageous, heroic and exalted by billions in the unseen.

To give beyond reason. To care beyond hope. To love without limit. To reach, stretch, and dream in spite of your fears. These are the hallmarks of divinity - traits of the immortal - your badges of honor, and your ticket onward.

This is the time of year we celebrate Sonjablu.

The Universe

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Christmas Eve

So tomorrow is Christmas. I will be cooking my first Christmas dinner ever. Here's to hoping I don't poison my family. Other than that I got my shopping done early and the presents are wrapped. Very exciting. Of course sitting here today I realized that I forgot someone. Luckily I can send a card with money after the fact. Oh well.

Have Merry Christmas everyone.....

PS: You can track Santa via the NORAD Santa tracker. I love this.


Thursday, December 14, 2006


OK, I know there are those who think Starbucks is all that is wrong with corporate America, but I just think they rock. And at the one I go to, there is one guy who works there who is fabulous. Here's this morning's conversation:

SBG: Good morning, would you like your usual Americano? (This is a classic sign that even at 1-2 times a week, I'm going there too much)
ME: I don't know, I'm torn between the Americano and the gingerbread latte
SBG: You could have an gingerbread Americano....
ME: Really?????
SBG: Yep, you would get the taste of the gingerbread with the extra shot of espresso found in the Americano. And you would have less milk, but you like a lot of room for cream anyway, right? (another sign)

So I got the gingerbread Americano and it was really good. All the caffeine with a hint of gingerbread taste. I love Starbucks.......

Saturday, December 09, 2006

A Project Close to my Heart

Project Blue Light

This information is provided courtesy of Concerns of Police Survivors, Inc.

Concerns of Police Survivors, Inc. (COPS), a national grief support organization comprised of over 15,000 surviving families of law enforcement officers killed in the line of duty, is asking concerned citizens and law enforcement agencies nationwide to again support Project Blue Light.

During the holiday season you are asked to put blue lights in your holiday decorations and your windows and tie blue ribbons on car antennas to show support for law enforcement officers who have given their lives in the line of duty for the citizens they have served. Additionally, this will be a show of support for those who continue to work the streets 24 hours a day, every day of the year.

Several years ago, Mrs. Dolly Craig, the surviving mother-in-law of Daniel Gleason, a Philadelphia (PA) police officer killed in the line of duty in 1986, sent her Christmas message to the COPS National office. Her daughter Pam, the surviving widow of Officer Gleason, had been killed in a car accident in August, 1989, before the holiday season. Dolly wrote, “This holiday I’m putting two blue lights in my living room window. One is for Dan and the other is for Pam, who believed so much in the COPS organization.”

Dolly Craig is now deceased as well, but her idea of Project Blue Light burns bright in the hearts of the over 15,000 families in the COPS organization.

For more information about Concerns of Police Survivors, Inc., or to support COPS’ programs for survivors and law enforcement agencies, contact COPS at PO Box 3199, Camdenton, MO 65020, (573)346-4911, or visit www.nationalcops.org.

Friday, December 01, 2006

The new Dodge

Ok, this is the next car I want. I know its big, but how beautiful is it. I love this blue...

Almost over, so says the Universe..

Can you beileve that it is almost CHristmas? I'm so not ready. On the up side, I got through 2 meetings at work this week without yelling at my boss or anybody else. Yea me!!! The DH has gone back to the midnight shift, so Iget the bed to myself 5 nights a week. Is that selfish? Of course the cat is still sleeping on my head, I'm going to have to convince him he can now sleep beside me. Anyway here is today's message from the Universe....

Can you believe it's already December?

That it's Friday, again?

That as you read these very words, somewhere in the world there are waves crashing, eagles soaring, lilacs blooming, and friends laughing so hard tears are streaming down their faces?

That your life has been changing so swiftly?

That you're absolutely gorgeous, inside and out?

That others who now want to make a fabulous, thriving life with your husband, emulate how you did it?

That peace, love, and happiness are flourishing around the world?

Yeah, I thought you would.

The Universe

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Did you deserve your HS diploma?

You paid attention during 63% of high school!

51-67% You are smart enough to be ashamed of still scoring so low; remember that there are books in the world, full of information? Yes, books are our friends.

Do you deserve your high school diploma?
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Now we have a crisis...

Ok, I have been doing my current job for 7 years. For those 7 years I have been told, don't lose money on your classes....try to break even or make a profit..blah, blah. There has never, ever been an exact number, until today. Today we are told we have to make $2100 a week to break even. Fine I can do that...but not right now. My schedule has been set through December, there is nothing that is going to change it, not possible. And to threaten me by saying "if you don't make money in the next three weeks, we going to have to ask WHEN you will". Well that would be sometime around January, maybe Febuary. Vague, closeted, threats do not motivate me, they only frustrated me and piss me off and make me want to leave.

On the same note, if we have been losing money for 4 years, why did it get to the point of being a crisis? Shouldn't someone have said around year 2 maybe, "Hey maybe we should change some things"? Idiot

At least the Universe understands me......

Do you know what it sometimes means, Meredith, when you feel a bit bummed out and aren't sure why? When you catch yourself looking back over your shoulder and wondering? When you feel doubt, sense uncertainty, and experience fear? When you sometimes wonder what's taking so long?

It means you're normal.


The Universe

Sunday, October 22, 2006

A few of my favorite things...

The river view @ the NOC

A herd of elk in the Smoky Mountains

Mountain views

Horseback riding in the Little Tennesse River

Living in Hell

Ok, its official, I live in hell. I just spend a glorious week in the Smoky Mountains of North Carolina, and the weather was fabulous. In the 60's all week, and I come back to 90 degree hell on earth. Thanks to Watershed Cabins for the beautiful place to stay. This is a shot of the cabin, and our messy bedroom. The bed was so big the DH & I didn't touch all week. You can see them at http://www.watershedcabins.com/

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Getting Better all the Time...

You might not always see it, Meredith, but everything, always, plays to a greater good...
Things keep on getting better and better...

And you're already the kind of person, you once dreamed you'd become.

All choked up -
The Universe

I didn't read my email yesterday, but I should have. I had a bad day, and could have used these words of wisdom. It is however getting better because I go on vacation tomorrow morning. Mountains here we come....

Friday, October 06, 2006

The Universe on Dreams

About those dreams you have each night, Sonja, that you don't quite remember...
Well, those are the ones in which you hold sway over the stars, possessing the keys to the entire Universe, and in which all the angels sing your name in praise. The very same ones in which you summon legions to do your bidding, create worlds to play your games, and unflinchingly orchestrate challenges that are so intense, you completely forget you're even dreaming.

And you're having one right now.

Now, repeat after me, "I will remember I'm dreaming, I'm perfectly safe and sound, and that the rumble in the jungle... is just me."

The Universe

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Harry Potter is of the devil....

Imagine my lack of surprise when I read in the paper a couple days ago this little ditty....

Georgia mom seeks ban on Harry Potter
Mother of four claims the teen wizard is 'evil', promotes witchcraft

Well maybe you can't imagine anything I might do or think because;
a) You don't know me
b) I don't think I have any readers yet

But I digress....So here is this mother with WAY too much time on her hands who wants to BAN Harry Potter from her community. Why? Well because,

the popular fiction series is an "evil" attempt to indoctrinate children in the Wicca religion.

That's right boys and girls, its a big plot by the Wiccans to take over the souls of young readers. Seriously, are you fucking kidding me? The only reason I give this nonsense any time is because I went to Southernen Baptist school 2-12. I lived through many the book/music/movie banning. Most of the time it only made me want to read/listen /see it more. Luckily my parents didn't buy it.

It was so bad that one of the parents told my mother once that they actually thought that I shouldn't go into law enforcement because I might have to be a prostitute one day. Hey guess what, its an act, I don't really have to have sex with someone to make and arrest. In fact, if the prostitute does have sex with you, safe bet she's not a cop!

My advice, if you don't like it don't read/listen/look.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Best quote read today..

During a press conference after the suspect in a Deputy's murder was killed by SWAT officers, Polk County Sheriff Grady Judd, explained why 110 rounds were fired at the suspect after he refused to come out of hiding and pointed gun at SWAT officers......

"I suspect the only reason 110 rounds was all that was fired was that's all the ammunition they had," Judd said. "We were not going to take any chance of him shooting back."

In other words if we had more ammunition we would have used it....Gotta love SWAT!!

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Suicide Attempt or OD?

I wasn't sure I wanted to address this here, but what the hell. So, TO didn't try to kill himself? Honestly, who cares! So it was an accidental OD. Really now? My point is this, if you have been an athlete for as long as TO, I'm sure you have been on pain meds before. By now, shouldn't you know how they react with your finely tuned machine? If you don't you are just an idiot and probably deserved what you got. Survival of the fittest baby!! I really, really don't like TO. And BTW what the hell kind of supplements are you taking that they cause that severe a reaction to prescription pain meds? Sounds fishy to me, then again have I mentioned that I don't like TO?

On the other hand kudos to the Dallas PD Deputy Chief for backing up his officer. I like to see an agency head back his people despite what is probably overwhelming pressure from the corporate whoring machines to push said officer under a bus.


Dallas police chief David Kunkle said he has "great confidence in the original officer report," which said rescue workers were called to the scene because of an attempted "suicide by prescription pain medication." The police document also said a friend described Owens as being depressed and that Owens said "Yes" when asked whether he was trying to harm himself.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

When you piddle....

I understand that sometimes boys dribble when they piddle. I shared a bathroom with my brother growing up, I get it. If you are a courteous man, you wipe it up. Now, I can't even begin to guess what happens in the public men's room, but my guess is that since men don't usually sit. This brings me to my point, Why in the name of all that is holy is there wetness on the seat of the women's toilet?

I really don't get it, never have. You sit with your ass on the toilet and yet somehow there is liquid left on the seat. Do you dribble? Is it flush spray? WTF. Either way, wipe it up!!! Why you may ask? Because I shouldn't have to look before I pee. I'm just saying.

On Wheel of Fortune: Category: Place
Contestant # 2 "Can I have a 'K'?
'K'?, are you fucking kidding me? This was the final round with not remotely enough letters to be asking for a 'K'.
On an Olive Garden Commercial:
"Can you tell what the endless pasta bowl is?"
Geez dipshit, what the hell do you think it is? Its all you can eat pasta. Moron.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

TV Season

So this week has been the start of the new TV Season! I have been waiting all summer for this week. So far I'm very happy with my new TV season.

The one I am concerned about, Jericho. Seriously, if you are depressed or suicidal, don't watch this. In one hour there were two nuclear bombs, like 20 people and a deer died. Its a real downer, but I think I might be sucked in. The DH complained that there were too many commercials, but I figure there has to be that many so you won't kill yourself.

I even accused the DH of trying to kill me by getting me to kill my self. Of course I informed him that he gets nothing if I suicide. I'm sure my insurance policy has a clause.

Monday, September 18, 2006

The Universe Speaks

Pretty much nothing in time and space, Sonja, is as important as you think it is.

Except, of course, dreaming.

The Universe

Tuesday, September 12, 2006


Ok, so this post is influenced by my new current obsession, Dave Navarro. For those who don't know, Dave Navarro was with Jane's Addiction, his new band Panic Channel and he is the producer and host of RockStar: SuperNova. http://www.6767.com/

Now just to get things straight, when I say obsession, I don't mean in the "stalker, going to show up at your house and hold you hostage" kind of obsession. Its more of a "read your blog, listen to your music, want to read more about you" kind of obsession. But I digress.

Anyway on to my rant, which involves said RS:SN. Apparently there are rumors and conspiracy theories involving the show. Ok Listen up people, REALITY TV IS NOT REAL!!!

The whole basis of TV is entertainment. The people on Survivor are not really surviving, if they were somebody would surely die. Who cares if the outcome is already decided (which I don't think is the case), its all about entertainment. So sit back, relax and be entertained.

If you want reality, watch CNN, or better yet, go outside.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

100 Things

About Me

1. My name is not Sonja
2. Sonja Blue is my favorite fictional character
3. I got married for the first time at 37
4. I have only lived in two States; Florida and Colorado
5. I was 15 years old when I made my career decision
6. I am not on the track I planned at 15
7. I’m ahead behind schedule
8. I am one dissertation away from a Doctorate I have my Doctorate
9. I have 2 great fur babies; Kody & Kady
10. I have no plans to have human children
11. I have recently discovered my creative side
12. I scrapbook
13. I love mixed martial arts and the UFC
14. I am currently obsessed with Dave Navarro WEC Lightweight Campion Urijah Faber
15. I’m 1/16 Seminole Indian on my father’s side
16. I’m all European on my mother’s side
17. I’ve been know to line dance
18. My best friend is like my sister
19. I never lived in or rented an apartment
. I never worked in the fast food industry
21. I suck a waiting tables
22. I love country music
23. I hate rap
24. I look good in Wranglers
25. I cry easily
26. I believe in the power of hypnosis
27. I also believe in acupuncture
28. I’m a fan of Tito Ortiz
29. No matter how hard I try to make them grow, I kill plants
30. I am not domestic
31. I’m allergic to my “kids”
32. I still ascribe human emotions to inanimate objects and animals
33. I have one younger brother
34. I met my husband during in-service training
35. I no longer work for that police department
36. It had nothing to do with him
37. I had my belly button pierced for 1 year
38. It never healed right and I took it out on my wedding night
39. I had bagpipes at my wedding
40. I am not religious
41. I believe in God
42. I also believe there is life beyond our universe
43. I have 5 tattoos
44. I will probably get more
45. Fall is my favorite season
46. October is my favorite month
47. Halloween is my favorite holiday
48. My name was supposed to be Elizabeth
49. If I had a daughter I would have named her after my
50. I love the smell of fresh cut grass
51. I hate to walk barefoot in the grass
52. I prefer beer over liquor
53. I look good in my cowboy hat
54. I love horseback riding
55. I want to own a horse
56. I love to watch bull riding
57. And hockey
58. I like to swear
59. I have a Godson in Ohio
60. I don’t think I’m a smart as others think I am
61. My best friend and I celebrate our birthday’s for a week
62. I can’t spell
63. Or do basic math
64. I can do complex statistics like a Chi Square
65. I can’t imagine what I did before I discovered DVR
66. I believe in the death penalty
67. I’m pro-choice
68. I believe gays should be allowed to marry
69. I am slightly OCD at work
70. I don’t wear dresses or skirts or heels
71. I wore Victorian style lace boots under my wedding dress
72. My wedding dress was simple and beautiful
73. I talk to myself out loud
74. I’m probably a bit crazy
75. I found I can only hold the crazy down for about three weeks
76. My hubby lasted past three weeks
77. I love my Sirius Radio
78. True Hollywood Story on Sirius is one of my guilty pleasures
79. I’m genetically engineered to sleep
80. I like it really cold when I sleep
81. I was almost kicked out of Disney World for being too happy
82. I was kicked out of an Applebee’s and a Pizza Hut for being too loud
83. I believe that Gatlinburg TN is the 7th circle of hell
84. I can’t siphon a hot tub
85. I can rewire my front porch light
86. I collect flamingos (not real ones, but that would be cool)
87. I am finding the last 13 of these difficult
88. I still love Welch’s Grape soda
89. I only like Lesuere very young small early peas
90. I don’t like fish
91. But I’ll eat smoked fish spread
92. I think bats are cool
93. I don’t wear dresses
94. I’m scared of cockroaches
95. Chocolate chips cookies are the best
96. I love chocolate-chip cookie dough
97. But not chocolate-chip cookie dough ice cream
98. I hate nuts on my ice cream
99. I love mint-chocolate chip ice cream
100. I’m not as computer literate as everyone thinks I am

Saturday, September 02, 2006

It's almost time...

Only 58 days until Halloween. Yippee!!!! I love Halloween. I can't wait to add to my decorations this year. Of course we're going to need a shed to put eveything in if I keep adding.

Its begining to look alot like Halloween all through the land!

Friday, September 01, 2006

Sweet yet disturbing

Ok, It seems that this is becomming my own personal quiz blog, but its not....this is sweet yet disturbing

You scored as Gunshot. Your death will be by gunshot, probably because you are some important person or whatever. Possibly a sniper, nice, quick, clean shot to the head. Just beautiful.







Natural Causes


















Cut Throat


How Will You Die??
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

More messages from the Universe

You're a creator! Creators don't have to justify themselves. They don't have to prove anything. It's the world around you, the illusions of your life that must justify themselves. It's the elements that must bow to your wishes; circumstances that must be yield to your expectations. It's time and space that are guests in your home, and not the other way around.

Was that all right, Master?
The Universe

Friday, August 25, 2006

So here's what my problem apparently is..... Actually its a fun little quiz, but surprisingly accurate.

Your Existing Situation
Seeks to share a bond of understanding intimacy in an esthetic atmosphere of peace and tenderness.

Your Stress Sources
Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be any better in the future and this negative attitude leads her to make exaggerated demands and to refuse to make reasonable compromises.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left her listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him. Circumstances are such that she feels forced to compromise for the time being if she is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation.

Your Desired Objective
Keeps herself under strict control so as not to break down under her difficulties. Needs a safer and easier situation in which she can feel more secure and have a chance to recover.

Your Actual Problem
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety, and she is distressed by the lack of any close and understanding relationship or adequate appreciation. She attempts to escape from this into a stable and secure environment in which she can relax and feel more contented.

Go to http://www.ColorQuiz.com/ for your color personality.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Management decisions Part 2

Is it a bad thing when you stand in your supervisor's office dropping F-bomb all over the place and other co-workers in the hall are telling you to lower your voice? Yes I thought so.

Three weeks later (yes kids, Friday was not the beginning) I still haven't got an answer to a basic question. Am I doing instructor paperwork or is someone else? Its not a hard question, but everybody seems to want to have multiple useless meetings to endlessly discuss bullshit that doesn't matter.

I am feeling like a woman in a man's world, and am being treated as such. When your boss says to you "I think what he's trying to say is...." and then repeats what was just said using smaller words, I think I'm being treated like an idiot girl.

Don't get me wrong I'm not one of those "poor me, I'm a girl in a man's world" I don't believe in that shit. I've actually done very well as a woman in a "man's" world. I've been a law enforcement officer and did well, and now I train officers and I am good at my job. I excel in my job.

The sad part is that I actually love my job, I love what I do. I'm tired of where I do it. It is exhausting.

But, tomorrow's another day.......

Thoughts from the Universe

The Universe talkes to me....it will talk to you to if you let it.

Whenever bumped off course, darling, it's often wise to pause and ascertain whether or not you've really been dealt a setback, or if it was in fact a little nudge from our Journey-Assistance-Program designed to subtly prepare you for something even better.
Because I'm sure you'll see, it was the latter.

I'm really, really sure - The Universe

Go to http://www.tut.com to get your messages from the Universe, and remember "Thoughts become thing, so think good ones"

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Management decisions

Ever work in a place where nobody in management wants to make a decision without having a meeting. And where a few certain people hold all the information and for reasons known only to them refuse to share it? If so, then you probably work with me.

When I have a question about your email, sending the same email me to me again DOES NOT answer my questions. No matter how many times I read it or how many times you send it to me, my questions are not going to be answered. And, no, I do not want to have a meeting to work out the details. I just want somebody to make a f-ing decision and then let the rest of us in on it. I do not have time for another worthless meeting.

Ok I'm better now......for now. Tomorrow's another Monday.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Well I have decided to jump into blog land. I don't know if this is a good idea or not or even if I have anything interesting to say. I have decided, however, that I have something to say sometimes.

So here we go....My rant for today. My DH and I watched the latest installment of RockStar SuperNova last night. What is the deal with the song "Cat's in the cradle"? Never liked it, never understood it. Apparently its some classic rock anthem...I don't get it